Dear Baby C,
Just the other day I started thinking about all the things I need to do {but have not yet done} related to your infancy, and I realized that I need to explain to you in writing how very important you are to me and our family.
Just in case you ever wonder why the pages of your baby book are not complete… or why we don’t have formal three month pictures of you on display… or why none of your bibs and blankets are monogrammed… or why your nursery is half put together…
You must know that all of this has nothing to do with your worth and everything to do with your birth order. You see, once upon a time I was organized and disciplined with projects and plans. But then God delighted your Daddy and me with two girls within two years. And it was then that I traded organized and disciplined for blessed and tired.
Even at your tender age, you’ve surely picked up on the energy that exudes out of your sisters. {You know how the Toddler regularly takes you for a wild ride in your swing? Or, how we repeatedly have to ask the Preschooler to please stop doing gymnastic maneuvers directly above your head?} Your sisters are a dynamic duo, and most days it’s all I can do to keep up with them. But, it’s for your safety and theirs that I prioritize things the way I do. Safety and sanity… those are our goals.
All of this to say… I hope you’ll understand how my best intentions to document your infancy might occasionally get derailed. I want you to have a beautiful baby book and a well-decorated nursery. But, more than that, I want you to know that if those things never really come together, it has absolutely nothing to do with the way I feel about you.
Before you were born I wondered how it would be possible to love another little life with the same depth and breadth of love that I have for your sisters. But, then you entered our world,… and from the moment I first held you, I loved you with the same indescribable love I have for them. My heart didn’t divide; it just grew bigger. I think it might be a miracle how that works.
So, Baby C, please know that you’re special. Even if there’s no written documentation of your first bath or any framed portraits of you at the 3-month milestone, know that you are treasured. There’s only one you, and it’s a great honor to be your mother.
Loving you always,
Momma
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